Imagine...knowing your best friend at birth because you're best friend created your birth. Imagine knowing from the beginning of life what true unconditional love really is. Imagine having a relationship that could not be put it words because there aren't any. Imagine already having what everybody has been searching for all of eternity....Imagine already being free. Imagine not understanding and throwing it all away. Imagine going from heaven to hell, just because you couldn't understand you where different. Just because you didn't know what your difference meant...just because you couldn't see you for who you are. Can you imagine? Can you visualize the longing? Can you acknowledge the abscence? Can you feel the heartbreak of a broken heart yearing to be healed? Could you possibly imagine?
That WAS my story. I had become seperated from the light within me. The years afterwards were just shadows of the years before. Being torn, ripped, severed, from the closest bond. This was me. This emptiness was the life I lived. This longing was the thirst I dealt with daily. This was my life and my death. Not anymore.
In a never ending battle to find what I was missing, I now know what it has been. I had lost the thing that made me, well, me. No longer, i'm sure it will cost me some people, but has it really been worth losing myself. I've never really been a people person, people have just always been attracted to me, and that is ok. But now i want to be attracted to me, i want to be back to the me i've longed to know. I want to, once again, be whole.
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