I don't think you unworthy i need a moment to deliberate

*blog title is alanis morissette-POW POW POW*

I don't actually have a topic today I just needed to write. This blog is a rather interesting experience because, before all other writing methods, i am a poet. If you have noticed I have made a deliberate effort not to include any poems on this blog page...maybe i'll start a second one for that. Anyways, by not writing poetry I actually have to either directly say, or purposely find a way to say all that is in this head and heart to say. *editor's interlude So little to say but so much time,Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind.* Yea that's kinda how i feel right before i start typing. Basically how do I translate emotion, thought, idea, my essence into words, when using a format i'm not used to. And thus hear come the song lyric interuptions. Honestly *we gotta open up our mind's Cause music is life...for life* Music for me is my poetry written by somebody else explaining how I feel, sometimes when even I can't. Now that i've said all that the reason for the blog title.

I find more times than not when i'm dealing with someone on a personal level at least once time during the course of our years i will hear "but Tenesha you're just not open, be open with me share with me." Now hear is the deal. It's not that I don't want to be open. Well it is but not because I just don't want to be open...let me give you a run down of why.

1) You're just more interesting to me.
I already know me. I kno my quirks, my interest, my desires, my dreams. I, however, do not know you. I want to be inside your head. I'm so fascinated witht he human condition that it rarely occurs to me that you might be interested in the same manner. LearninG others is just one of those things I do.

2) What cha wan kno?!?!
What do you mean tell me something about you? Um i'm a girl. Shit, idk how to answer that question. So what do you wanna know. It's not that i don't want to share, I say again, but damn, what am i supposed to be telling you exactly. Chances are if you're asking questions i'm not offering answers its just the way my mind works...call me crazy lol...u wouldn't be the first

Well i think i'm out of words for this one so i guess THAT'S ALL FOLKS LOL