...and i'm lonely, cuz ur not, around

I didn't want to get to this point. I did not wanna feel this way. I did not want to miss you. OMG it's actually true, I wish i could fall for you. God how i wish that I was free to be completely open with you. How I wish there could be no backlash from feeling this way. And yet i knew exactly what I was getting into, or did I. I don't think I meant for this to happen, we just clicked. Theres something about you that kinda connects to my soul. Your personality, well it's what i've been searching for, and that sucks. So I wait. Kinda, just sit back and silently miss you. Would be awesome if i could dive in and just give it up to you (song reference). However, thats not the role that has been destined for me. It makes me think. If I can have grown so attached to you, so desirous of your presence. If I can regularly long to have you fill my space. Why do i not get the chance. Life kinda isn't fair like that. I've finally found someone that i want to be real with, that i'm willing to be quirky me with, and that i believe would be 100 with me, and yet it just can't be.